Evil Thoughts About Spaying

My writing workshop tutor keeps calling me Francesca.  I take this as a compliment, even though Francesca is a dark, deluded, dangerous woman.  Francesca is also the main character of my novel.

I’m a nice person.  I have friends.  I guard their secrets.  I offer support and encouragement and empathy.  So why does my tutor confuse me with Francesca?  Does she perhaps sense something of Francesca’s darkness in me?

The other day I took my dog to the vet to be spayed.  As far as I was concerned, this was a great opportunity for me to get some writing done as the dog would be a docile convalescent for the next week at least. Then,  the vet rang to say he couldn’t operate because he’d detected a heart murmur. My first thought?  I have to confess it wasn’t,  ‘my poor dog, I hope she’s okay, I must run to her.’ But rather, ‘damn, there goes my writing time.’

Perhaps this says something about my protagonist and me. We are both capable of selfish, self-absorbed reactions. The difference, I hasten to add, is that she has no idea this isn’t a good thing.


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5 Responses to Evil Thoughts About Spaying

  1. Meg says:

    1. I love your blog layout! That header is perfect! Yay, excited for more posts.

    2. It’s hilarious that she kept calling you Francesca. Best ever. Personally I’m secretly terrified that you’re going to show up at my doorstep and try to force-feed me offal, but that’s just a beautiful dark part of yourself that you should embrace. What if, while writing your novel, you BECAME Francesca? It’d be like a weird Black Swan-style psychological thriller, but in REAL LIFE. I’ll write the novel of you writing your novel and we can become millionaires!

    3. Your poor dog, I hope she’s gonna be okay!

  2. claudia says:

    Thanks Meg. I’m totally on board for the bestseller idea. I’ll be round tomorrow with some tripe and sweetmeat.

  3. claudia says:

    Oh and by the way, the dog turned out to be just fine x

  4. Sarah says:

    Your dark side is really going to show now, isn’t it? You know what Darth said, “Choose the dark side, Luke…. Ahem, I mean Francesca!”

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